its the same old story, and im tired of hearing it over and over again.
please don't be good, please be mean. please don't be too close, please be distant away. please don't give me everything i want, please be selfish. please don't let me fall in love with you, please give me reasons to hate you very much. please...
i easily fall in love and i instantly fall out of love - it is the familiar story. you care, i care, i love, and i end up holding on into something which never existed - and it is exactly the same old story.
ang akala ko, natuto na ako. ilang beses na itong nangyari, ilang beses ko na ring sinabing 'ayoko na', at ilang beses ko na ring isinumpang, "i'll never do it again, like again."
but sometimes, things happened unexpectedly, in the most unexpected moment at the most unexpected time.. and you'll be surprised that one day you just wake up, finding yourself falling in love with the most unexpected person who just simply passed by while you are waiting. you know its not love, it maybe a kind of infatuation or maybe a mere appreciation. its just a matter of confusion of your emotions. but then again, you can't deny, the feelings kept on growing every time you were together. the bliss became undeniable and you keep on insisting to your damn self, that it is not love, though you exactly know, it is indeed LOVE - the world's most familiar feeling.
however, it may sound strange. No matter how frequent it happened in the past leading to the familiar pain of heartaches, you still do not have a single idea of how to deal with your emotions almost right, if not perfectly, and worst, you will keep on doing the very same mistake you did in the past.
i hate it every time i can't fight the urge to see you, i hate it to debate with myself whether to keep in touch with you or not, i hate it when i sound stupid every time you are near, i hate it when i see you everywhere, i hate it.. i hate to admit that i do care about you.
i know i should stop. it is not because it is not right, but simply i am afraid of how to deal with it. it is not because of you, it is merely because of me. everything affirms my stupidity, my immaturity in terms of love, and my playful attitude towards it. i believe in the power of love, in fact i wanted to be loved, but i am just afraid - afraid to be loved, afraid to be obsessed, and most especially, afraid to be left out all alone - and i am afraid to be your greatest frustration.
so please, if you just have plans to left me hanging alone and just to let me chase with all these illusions, it's better that you step on your brakes and we will stop together at the red light. and before it turns green, we know and we just know, it is not the feeling of love, it is just a feeling of appreciation for being a very good acquaintance. after all, no more dreams will be shattered and no more hearts will be broken. :))
i easily fall in love and i instantly fall out of love - it is the familiar story. you care, i care, i love, and i end up holding on into something which never existed - and it is exactly the same old story.
ang akala ko, natuto na ako. ilang beses na itong nangyari, ilang beses ko na ring sinabing 'ayoko na', at ilang beses ko na ring isinumpang, "i'll never do it again, like again."
but sometimes, things happened unexpectedly, in the most unexpected moment at the most unexpected time.. and you'll be surprised that one day you just wake up, finding yourself falling in love with the most unexpected person who just simply passed by while you are waiting. you know its not love, it maybe a kind of infatuation or maybe a mere appreciation. its just a matter of confusion of your emotions. but then again, you can't deny, the feelings kept on growing every time you were together. the bliss became undeniable and you keep on insisting to your damn self, that it is not love, though you exactly know, it is indeed LOVE - the world's most familiar feeling.
however, it may sound strange. No matter how frequent it happened in the past leading to the familiar pain of heartaches, you still do not have a single idea of how to deal with your emotions almost right, if not perfectly, and worst, you will keep on doing the very same mistake you did in the past.
i hate it every time i can't fight the urge to see you, i hate it to debate with myself whether to keep in touch with you or not, i hate it when i sound stupid every time you are near, i hate it when i see you everywhere, i hate it.. i hate to admit that i do care about you.
i know i should stop. it is not because it is not right, but simply i am afraid of how to deal with it. it is not because of you, it is merely because of me. everything affirms my stupidity, my immaturity in terms of love, and my playful attitude towards it. i believe in the power of love, in fact i wanted to be loved, but i am just afraid - afraid to be loved, afraid to be obsessed, and most especially, afraid to be left out all alone - and i am afraid to be your greatest frustration.
so please, if you just have plans to left me hanging alone and just to let me chase with all these illusions, it's better that you step on your brakes and we will stop together at the red light. and before it turns green, we know and we just know, it is not the feeling of love, it is just a feeling of appreciation for being a very good acquaintance. after all, no more dreams will be shattered and no more hearts will be broken. :))
complicated much... =)
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